It can feel as if someone pulls the carpet away under you. For a while you feel like you are floating without knowing in which direction. You try - desperately - to keep up with almost everything - and you find yourself becoming more and more confused.
Untill all of a sudden - you find that after every closed door there comes another door - you just have to open it. But you must have the courage to open it. You must have the will to open it. But as you don't know what lies behind this not yet opened door, you must also have the courage to face some of your fears.
Example
My contract, with the school I was teaching at, ran out. What now? I tried everything. Due to some stupid rules here in Germany, I can not teach at an ordinary school. Private Schools, yes, but not the other schools. I was in a state of calm panic. Taking one day at a time, thinking something would come around. Trying to hang on to this school, trying to find different stupid ways to still have a reason to show up at the school.
But maybe I'm not supposed to do any more teaching here in Germany. Maybe this is the time to make some of all my dreams come true! Maybe I should just get my behind in gear and work on my dreams. Making my dreams my life!
So while walking my dog here
I made up my mind to live my dream, and no longer just dreaming my dream.
So, this blog is going to be the written proof of my new life. A calmer life, a life where less can be more, a life with enough time to make and do all the things I find important.
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